The Radiant I AM

(A Self Treatment)
Emma Curtis Hopkins

The listening disciple becomes a preaching apostle. Standing at the Center of Being and looking outward over the world, instruction is received from every quarter.

But who hath told himself that all the objects he beholds and all their movements also are but projections of his own judgment?
He seems always to be a learner and a seeker till at the center of his consciousness the fact is suddenly proclaimed that he himself produced the world as it appears.

Then he no longer listens to information from without; he authorizes from himself what he would see and hear and touch; even what he would know.

I have been a listening disciple.
I have let people and objects and activities come toward me and impinge upon me till I have been overpiled and mountaincovered with thoughts.
But now I know that I AM at my own Center, authority over and through my universe, and I shall ordain my twelve disciples, or my twelve powers, to spread my Original Nature abroad till from me to the utmost stretches all is my Divine Ego.

It is the teaching that all is Spirit, and matter is not obedient shadow – picturing thereof, which is the final subtle message toward me that makes me see that I AM what I AM and alter not.

Spirit is the gentle Mother doctrine among the doctrines of the world –
gentle but inexorable.
She brings to exposure the Man Child, my I AM – who shall rule all nations with a rod of iron.

The iron that is strongest is magnetic.
It rules in the earth by holding all the particles together.
It rules in the sun.
It rules in all the spheres.
They roll because of the magnet.
So all my being has moved because of my I AM.
So all my universe shall wheel to my ordination.

This is my ministry.
I am glad to give myself to my Self and to give all my world to my Self and let my Self do in judgment twelve works upon the earth.
This is my ministry.
I have heard all I shall ever hear.
I know all I shall ever know.
I now make my Self known.

I make my Self known by speaking, thinking, writing and living the word of my Self – my I AM.
I reign from sea to sea and from the river to the uttermost parts of the earth.
I reign by my knowledge of my own I AM and its last name.
The name of my I AM in the last days of the manifestation of a universe, which I made by not speaking from my Central Point, is Jesus Christ.
The I AM in me is Jesus Christ.
I speak boldly of my Self to the world in which I walk.
I think from my Self forward over its surface through all its substance.
I write what I know and I write what I AM, and what I write is the fibre of all things.
They shall feel themselves knitting into transfigured embodiments by my written words.
“Write what thou hearest and give it unto the churches.” (Rev. 1:11)

I live as a breath of life forward and back through the universe.
I AM the conduct of my world.
What I do it does.
Conducting from my Center, I satisfy my world with what I AM.

My world can find no flaw in Me.
I can find no flaw in my Self.
Because I live at my Center, ye live also.
My rod of iron is my being what I AM and knowing it.
We give Thee thanks, O Lord God Almighty, because Thou hast taken to Thyself Thy great power and hast reigned”.
These that are thankful are my powers.
I AM Lord God Almighty to my own powers.
I AM power of Life to the universe.
Because I live, all that hath form or name shall live.

There shall be no death nor fear of death throughout the boundaries of eternal spaces from this day forth forever.
That which proceedeth forth from Me is Life and the power of Life forever.
As I breathe, the creatures of the sea and air and sands rise up refreshed and there is no power against their life and no ending of their life forever from this day forth.
I AM the unending, irresistible Life of the world.
I think this  –  I speak this  – I write this  – I live this.
This is my ministry which I AM.
Let us give ourselves to the ministry of the Word.” (Acts 6:4)

I AM the power of Health to the universe.
Because I AM holy at my Center, I make whole wherever I decree.
I AM authority.
There shall be happy, joyous, free, fearless Health through this universe from this day.
All that have name and shape shall this day lift up their heads with new refreshment.
The elixirs of a fadeless healing shall steal through them.
There shall be no disease or sickness from this day of the Lord onward.
“The inhabitants shall not say, ‘I am sick.’ Any more.” (Isaiah 33:24)
I AM the unending, irresistible, beautiful Health of the whole universe.
I, its Center, shed my Health abroad. This is my stopless ministry.
I think this – I speak this – I write this – I live this.

I AM the power of strength to the universe.
Because I AM unalterable, I AM omnipotence.
I minister myself abroad.
All that have shape or name feel stealing through them a reviving strength from this day which nothing shall ever interfere with.
I strengthen wherever I decree.
I AM Authority.
There shall be lifting up and strong godliness throughout all mysteries of height and depth and plain and valley from this day onward.
There shall no faintness seize upon anything.
There shall no weakness touch anything.
There shall no feebleness be heard of forever and forever.
The prophecy is fulfilled in me which reads, “When men are cast down, thou shalt say, there is lifting up.” (Job 22:29).
I AM the Strength of the universe.
This is my ministry.
Strength that proceedeth from me is irresistible, unending.
I think this – I speak this – I write this – I live this.

I AM a tower whose radiance is elixir for infinity.
I AM the power of Support to the universe.
Everything that hath shape or name is upborne and prospered in all its ways from this day on.
There shall be no lack or disappointed effort. All shall rise and have self-respect from this day on.
I from my Center AM a radiance of upbearing sustainment through all this universe.
There shall be no poverty, no lack, no want from this day forth.
I AM the sufficiency of my universe.
It is my decree.
The elixir of bounty, of prospering effort, spreads forth from me.
This is my irresistible, unending ministry.
I think this – I speak this – I write this -I live this.

I AM a tower whose radiance sheds abroad Protection for infinite kingdoms. That which speeds forth as my radiance is the Holy Spirit of Revelation.
I AM the unending peaceable defense of the whole universe.
By Me all that have name or shape are safe and secure running, or walking, or flying forever.
They shall not fear.
They shall not be attacked.
They shall not be hurt.
The days of hurting have flown away.
The dreams of danger are past.
Things wake as my mighty elixirs spread through them borne on the streams of my word, my thought, my writings, my life breaths.
They rouse themselves.
They are safe forevermore.
They shall not hurt or kill (destroy) in all my holy mountain.” (Isaiah 11:9)
I AM the security of the infinite stretches and of the near creations.
Peace, peace to them that are afar off and to them that are near.” (Eph. 2:17)
This is my ministry.
I think this – I speak this – I write this – I live this.

I AM the power of Mind to my universe.
Even the stones shed a message intelligible to all other shapes and names because of my being the intelligence of all things shedding my nature forth without stopping.
No foolishness or ignorance shall ever shame anything visible or invisible from this day on forever.
Its Presence is its wisdom.
Its Presence is its information.
An elixir of intelligence is on its stopless march from me at my Center forever through all the reaches of space and formulation.I decree intelligence.
I decree Mind.
I think and all the universe thinks divinely like Me.
My Mind is not as the former mind which could change or stop.
It is the Jesus Christ Mind whose word shall not pass away.
I AM a tower whose radiance is unending Wisdom through all things.
This is my ministry, My Logos.
I think this – I speak this – I write this – I live this.

I AM the radiant Logos in Mind.
I AM the power of Speech to my universe.
My tongue is its tongue.
What I say, it says from its smallest atom to its gigantic formulation.
My Central Name is my tongue of radiance.
All that speak, speak of the I AM.
One tongue only shall speak.
Its language no man or stone did hear nor could ever hear till I should speak from my Center.
I now speak what I speak from my Jesus Christ Name.
So atoms and angels speak a new heaven and a new earth into their own view, empowered by my tongue with its elixirs of fire.
I speak and the universe uttereth itself.
I AM a tower whose radiance sheds eloquent Speech through atoms and man. This is my ministry.
I think this – I speak this – I write this – I live this.

I AM the power of Writing – Recording – Witnessing of Jesus Christ and the Name folded within the gates of that Name.
What I write the world writes.
I fix my hallowed glory with my fingers and all things fix themselves to go no more away from their home forever.
The Written Word is the haven of man and of beast.
I AM the inspiring pen of the world.
I shall find my inspiration everywhere.
Nothing unlike my writing lives.
All except my inspirations vanish.
I AM from my Center the fixing and transfixing pen.
I shall not faint or fail to fix my glory everywhere.
I AM man’s inspiration with his pen and I inspire all things to record me as I AM.
I AM a tower whose radiance is the inspiration to pen itself in its divinity in every shape and name through infinity.
I think this – I speak this – I write this – I live this.

I AM the power of Song – Joyous Song that steals in unquenchable smiling through the universe.
I AM the Eternal Smile.
As I shed my Self through the atoms and through the globes, they sing.
I AM the joyous song, unquenchable, unhinderable forever.
No other sound but singing, no other voice but joy is heard from this day forth. I AM the inspiring joy of my world forever.
This is my ministry.
I think this – I speak this – I write this – I live this.

There is joy beyond ecstasy.
I AM that joy.
I AM the power of Skill for all things.
From me there steals forever a quick touch of skillfulness through all fingers. No child needs to be schooled, no bird needs a teacher, no angel needs a helper.
All can do their part and they can do what they will to do.
There is no incompetency or need of learning from this day on forever, anywhere.
I AM a tower whose radiance is a skill – inspiring elixir, stopless-eternal.
This is my ministry. I think this – I speak this – I write this – I live this.

I AM the power of Beauty and Judgment.
From my poised place I AM the poise of the ages of men.
I judge, and my judgment is what all things go by.
They judge like me.
I set the features of things into balance and this is their beauty.
I balance the atoms that flow in the skin and its balance is its beauty.
I set the inner parts into harmony by being the central judgment of eternal facts.
I decree and there is no injustice.
Nothing falls into mistake.
Nothing is unjust.
The scales of my judgment are the scales in the hearts of all men.
They will not fail to use these scales.
And thus order and beauty reign from Pole Star to Southern Cross and from right-hand to left of the worlds beyond worlds.
He shall not faint or fail till He hath established judgment in the eart” (C.f., Jer. 23:5)
I AM a scale whose rods are the beams of unbreakable right.
My judgment is right judgment.
As I judge, so it is.
All the poise that I AM I radiate through all the universe and all things feel the joy of adjustment.
This is my ministry.
This is my nature.
I think this – I speak this – I write this – I live this.
I AM the power of Heaven to every atom and to every archangel.
From my Jesus Christ Center of Being I shed Heaven through the spaces.
All things breathe of my radiance.
I shed my Self abroad in unending beauty; Heaven breaks in the heart and on the vision from me to all things, through all things.
The old heaven and earth sink away into forgotten dreams because I have found my Self, because I know my Self, because I AM my Self.
I have taken up the authority I had from before the worlds were spun on the ethers of time.
I decree Heaven and Heaven it is.
My will is done on earth and it is all Heaven.
My Kingdom is come and it is the new land of delight that steals on the vision and reaches the senses of all things.
Nothing like the dreams of earth, nothing like the motions of matter ever reaches my universe.
As silently as a moonbeam lights on a mountain, so silently has Heaven stolen on the gazes of all the creations of infinity.
I AM a tower whose elixirs of radiance reveal the visions of Heaven to the senses of man.
From my Jesus Christ center I AM Heaven from this day forth to all the universe.

This is my stopless, everlasting ministry.
I do this.
I AM this.
My Name is a folding gate that opens and there is no sound.
My Name is Jesus Christ, and in that Name I AM the Heaven of all this universe.
Its meaning is its influence.
I AM its meaning, its influence, its heavenliness.
I think this – I speak this – I write this – I live this.
I AM what I Am.
I do what I AM by knowing my Self as Jesus Christ the Heaven-sending Center of Being, the Heaven-sending Me.

Thoughts are For Giving

The process of manifestation is, simply put as follows: The conscious awareness creates an image, a mental image. This image gets impressed on the thinking stuff – which is, as Wallace Wattles in his book “The Science of getting rich”  describes it:

There is a thinking stuff from which all things are made, and which, in its original state, permeates, penetrates, and fills the interspaces of the universe.
 A thought in this substance produces the thing that is imaged by the thought.

This “Thinking Stuff” goes by many names; God, Allah, Mother Nature, Divine Substance…  Whatever  feels the most right to you is the name that is right for you.  Remember, you are this stuff as you.  So in order to be in harmony you have to be in harmony.  If it doesn’t feel right to you then you are not in harmony with it. It is that simple.

So the mental image created gets infused with feeling.  This infusion happens regardless of  whether we think we are doing it or not.  The work we do around our feelings is really to keep ourselves in as constant a state of feel good as possible. And to have the state of “Feeling Good” be actually based on good things.  Because it is possible to have a mental association between feeling good and destructive images.  We’ve met those people.  They live at all ends of the economic scale. They have stuff.  Sometimes luxurious stuff. They have followings. Sometimes large followings. They have charisma. They can sway you to eat fire. 

We’ve been those people to varying degrees. All that goes to show is nothing more than God is the vibration of good.  And what you think is your good will cause you to vibrate and the Universe will respond with what YOU think is your good – leaving us, from time to time to scratch our heads and wonder where that fireball sandwhich came from. But even then, only those asleep to their own power – their own relationship to this Thinking Stuff scratch their heads. Those that are aware know. And seeing the fireball sandwhich and feeling the burn, they quickly work to change their thinking.

Another wy of understanding it is to picture a metal detector. It is designed to emit a signal that gets stronger and stronger the closer one gets to the metal source.  That is how it is with us.  Our feeling good is the metal dector signal that lifts us and moves us. We have the capacity to generate that as well.  And the process of generating that is the process of manifestation that utilizes thought.

This is powerful. This knowledge has been used and abused time and again.  A child can be taught that pain is pleasure. Pleasure being the good we are wired as spiritual beings to seek. And so this little creative spirit moves through their life manifesting all the ingrediants of a painful life and can’t understand how a “God” could allow them to endure such hardships.  They and others around them are focused on the “effect” and they think the effect is the cause.  But it is the process of focus that is the cause and since it is in use targeted on the effect it is hard to see – like trying to see your own eyeball. With an outside source it is possibe but try to contort your eye to see itself – impossible.   This is why, from time to time, certain answers come to us from something or someone outside us. This is the most powerful lesson as well as the most difficult to get. But once you get it it changes everything.

In her book “Your Invisible Power“, Genevieve Behrand says:

“Try to remember that the picture you think, feel, and see is reflected into the Universal Mind, and by the natural law of reciprocal action must return to you in either spiritual or physical form. Knowledge of this law of reciprocal action between the individual and the Universal Mind opens you to free access to all you may wish to posses or to be.

It must be steadfastly borne in mind that all this can be true only for the individual who recognizes that he derives his power to make an abiding mental picture from the All-Originating Universal Spirit of Life, and can be used constructively only so long as it is employed and retained in harmony with the nature of the spirit which originated it.

To insure this, there must be no inversion of the thought of the individual regarding his relationship to this Universal Originating Spirit, which is that of a son, through which the parent mind acts and reacts. Thus conditioned, whatever you think and feel yourself to be, the Creative Spirit of Life is bound to faithfully reproduce in a corresponding reaction.

This is the great reason for picturing yourself and your affairs the way you wish them to be as existing facts— though invisible to the physical eye—and living in your picture. An honest endeavor to do this, always recognizing that your own mind is a projection of the Originating Spirit, will prove to you that the best there is, is yours in all your ways. “

It is essential to have an understanding of this process in order to then understand the purpose forgiveness holds outside of any religious or metaphysical reference. Which only matters insofar as how you understand it keeps you in the harmonic vibrational relationship between your goog good and the Source. If understanding it religiously is what resonates with you then so be it. If spiritually or metaphysically then so be it. If quantum physically then so be it.  Only you are hung up on it. The Universal Mind isn’t.  It is always in connection to you and giving you what you are imaging.

Thoughts, the mental images that are in your head are for giving to the “Thinking Stuff, the Universal Mind, God, the Sub-Consciousness.” This is the realationship between you and “The Father-Mother God”.
When you get an image stuck in that process, as it happens with traumatic or ecstatic images, they get sent and re-sent over and over.  This inturn ends up with a repetition of the same experience over and over and over – abusive relationships, crappy apartments, faulty this or faulty that.  OR – in caps for emphasis – beautiful, loving relationships, amazing apartments in wonderful neighborhoods, happy this and exciting that.. 

Forgiveness fulfills an essential function.   It takes the image we have been holding and lets it go and frees us up to create another image. That is our task as spiritual beings having spiritual experiences – to create images of experiences we can feel love about.  We are here to feel love. To express love. Now don’t get all weird on me.  But go now and look on creation and tell it how much you love it – and watch the response that returns…

The Illusion


I was under the illusion that I controlled my thoughts.
Like most people, I guess, I assumed that I originated them. 

I was the author.

The problem was that the I that I thought I was was not the I that I really am.
I was but a figment of an imagined being imagining himself being.

To bolster this machination I could only interact, the majority of the time, with other figments.
I couldn’t stay too long in the space of those who were not figments or were aware of their figment status and were working on re-establishing their reality.

Otherwise I would have had to acknowledge that something was wrong. 
And since thoughts never leave their source that would mean that something was wrong with me.

Looking back I see that keeping up appearances was a lot of work and pain and struggle – which was necessary only in the context of I was trapped and needed to get free but not in the context of the reality of being.

The outcome was inevitable in spite of me and who I aligned myself with.
The idea that I had a means to prolong that inevitability was part of the illusion.

In true being there is  no choice but to let go because there is no other way of being.

Every now is but an instantaneous moment that is gone the moment it is brought to awareness.

I do not know where thoughts come from.
But they must come from somewhere because I have them.

Meditation seems to be the best method I have found for letting go and allowing thoughts to freely flow from whereever it is they originate from.

Trust the process. It has a function it was designed to fulfill. 


ave you ever really seriously sat back and contemplated the use of the word motherfucker?

I mean really thought  what does it mean?  

And why would an angry or other emotional outburst connect “fucking” (and I am assuming here that refers to sex) with “mother” ( and I am assuming that refers to “mom”) and spew it out in a way that suggests we all understand the deep negative vibe around what that means?

Did it arise from some ancient hatred of Dad?  Mom? Some guy a child caught having sex with mom? Or as suggests a child who has sex with their mother?

Here are some defintiions from across the web:

(sometimes abbreviated as mofo, mf, or mf’er) is an American vulgarism. Its literal sense means one who fucks his mother, although this usage is seldom implied. Rather, it refers to a mean, despicable, or vicious person, or any particularly difficult or frustrating situation. Alternatively, it is used as a compliment, for instance in the jazz community.
Motherfucker: A common slang derived most popularly from a form of “yo momma jokes” but actually dating waaaay the hell back to the 1300’s when it was considered the highest sin to sleep with ones own mother. (Even above murder.)

It can mean precisely as it sounds, one who has sex mothers, but it was originally meant as “one who has sex with their own mother”.

It is most of the time used without meaning, just to be said in a sentence, it can mean absolutely nothing and absolutely everything its meant to at the same time.

Also is used constantly to denote someone is a moron, a trife, a back stabber, and any number of other completely unrelated meanings.

“You motherfucker! how could you!”
“What the motherfuck is going on here?”
“Motherfucker, motherfucker, motherfucker…!”
motherfucker noun moth·er·fuck·er \ˈmə-thər-ˌfə-kər\

Definition of MOTHERFUCKER

usually obscene :  one that is formidable, contemptible, or offensive — usually used as a generalized term of abuse
usually obscene :  person, fellow
moth·er·fuck·ing \-kiŋ\ adjective, usually obscene

It’s something we should think about. 

Words have meaning.   I happen to be one who, while I do fling them wildly sometimes, believes words are a link in the chain of manifestation. No I don’t think we are manifesting a slew of child/mother sex experiences but I do think it contributes, somehow to the continuing war on women we seem to continue to engage in.

A Course in Miracles: Day 169 Lesson 169


Grace is an aspect of the Love of God which is most like the state prevailing in the unity of truth. It is the world’s most lofty aspiration, for it leads beyond the world entirely. It is past learning, yet the goal of learning, for grace cannot come until the mind prepares itself for true acceptance. Grace becomes inevitable instantly in those who have prepared a table where it can be gently laid and willingly received; an altar clean and holy for the gift.

Grace is acceptance of the Love of God within a world of seeming hate and fear. By grace alone the hate and fear are gone, for grace presents a state so opposite to everything the world contains, that those whose minds are lighted by the gift of grace can not believe the world of fear is real.

Grace is not learned. The final step must go beyond all learning. Grace is not the goal this course aspires to attain. Yet we prepare for grace in that an open mind can hear the Call to waken. It is not shut tight against God’s Voice. It has become aware that there are things it does not know, and thus is ready to accept a state completely different from experience with which it is familiarly at home.

We have perhaps appeared to contradict our statement that the revelation of the Father and the Son as One has been already set. But we have also said the mind determines when that time will be, and has determined it. And yet we urge you to bear witness to the Word of God to hasten the experience of truth, and speed its advent into every mind that recognizes truth’s effects on you.

Oneness is simply the idea God is. And in His Being, He encompasses all things. No mind holds anything but Him. We say “God is,” and then we cease to speak, for in that knowledge words are meaningless. There are no lips to speak them, and no part of mind sufficiently distinct to feel that it is now aware of something not itself. It has united with its Source. And like its Source Itself, it merely is.

We cannot speak nor write nor even think of this at all. It comes to every mind when total recognition that its will is God’s has been completely given and received completely. It returns the mind into the endless present, where the past and future cannot be conceived. It lies beyond salvation; past all thought of time, forgiveness and the holy face of Christ. The Son of God has merely disappeared into his Father, as his Father has in him. The world has never been at all. Eternity remains a constant state.

This is beyond experience we try to hasten. Yet forgiveness, taught and learned, brings with it the experiences which bear witness that the time the mind itself determined to abandon all but this is now at hand. We do not hasten it, in that what you will offer was concealed from Him Who teaches what forgiveness means.

All learning was already in His Mind, accomplished and complete. He recognized all that time holds, and gave it to all minds that each one might determine, from a point where time was ended, when it is released to revelation and eternity. We have repeated several times before that you but make a journey that is done.

For oneness must be here. Whatever time the mind has set for revelation is entirely irrelevant to what must be a constant state, forever as it always was; forever to remain as it is now. We merely take the part assigned long since, and fully recognized as perfectly fulfilled by Him Who wrote salvation’s script in His Creator’s Name, and in the Name of His Creator’s Son.

There is no need to further clarify what no one in the world can understand. When revelation of your oneness comes, it will be known and fully understood. Now we have work to do, for those in time can speak of things beyond, and listen to words which explain what is to come is past already. Yet what meaning can the words convey to those who count the hours still, and rise and work and go to sleep by them?

Suffice it, then, that you have work to do to play your part. The ending must remain obscure to you until your part is done. It does not matter. For your part is still what all the rest depends on. As you take the role assigned to you, salvation comes a little nearer each uncertain heart that does not beat as yet in tune with God.

Forgiveness is the central theme that runs throughout salvation, holding all its parts in meaningful relationships, the course it runs directed and its outcome sure. And now we ask for grace, the final gift salvation can bestow. Experience that grace provides will end in time, for grace foreshadows Heaven, yet does not replace the thought of time but for a little while.

The interval suffices. It is here that miracles are laid; to be returned by you from holy instants you receive, through grace in your experience, to all who see the light that lingers in your face. What is the face of Christ but his who went a moment into timelessness, and brought a clear reflection of the unity he felt an instant back to bless the world? How could you finally attain to it forever, while a part of you remains outside, unknowing, unawakened, and in need of you as witness to the truth?

Be grateful to return, as you were glad to go an instant, and accept the gifts that grace provided you. You carry them back to yourself. And revelation stands not far behind. Its coming is ensured. We ask for grace, and for experience that comes from grace. We welcome the release it offers everyone. We do not ask for the unaskable. We do not look beyond what grace can give. For this we can give in the grace that has been given us.

Our learning goal today does not exceed this prayer. Yet in the world, what could be more than what we ask this day of Him Who gives the grace we ask, as it was given Him?

By grace I live. By grace I am released.
By grace I give. By grace I will release.

A Course in Miracles: Day 168 Lesson 168


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God speaks to us. Shall we not speak to Him? He is not distant. He makes no attempt to hide from us. We try to hide from Him, and suffer from deception. He remains entirely accessible. He loves His Son. There is no certainty but this, yet this suffices. He will love His Son forever. When his mind remains asleep, He loves him still. And when his mind awakes, He loves him with a never-changing Love.

If you but knew the meaning of His Love, hope and despair would be impossible. For hope would be forever satisfied; despair of any kind unthinkable. His grace His answer is to all despair, for in it lies remembrance of His Love. Would He not gladly give the means by which His Will is recognized? His grace is yours by your acknowledgment. And memory of Him awakens in the mind that asks the means of Him whereby its sleep is done.

Today we ask of God the gift He has most carefully preserved within our hearts, waiting to be acknowledged. This the gift by which God leans to us and lifts us up, taking salvation’s final step Himself. All steps but this we learn, instructed by His Voice. But finally He comes Himself, and takes us in His Arms and sweeps away the cobwebs of our sleep. His gift of grace is more than just an answer. It restores all memories the sleeping mind forgot; all certainty of what Love’s meaning is.

God loves His Son. Request Him now to give the means by which this world will disappear, and vision first will come, with knowledge but an instant later. For in grace you see a light that covers all the world in love, and watch fear disappear from every face as hearts rise up and claim the light as theirs. What now remains that Heaven be delayed an instant longer? What is still undone when your forgiveness rests on everything?

It is a new and holy day today, for we receive what has been given us. Our faith lies in the Giver, not our own acceptance. We acknowledge our mistakes, but He to Whom all error is unknown is yet the One Who answers our mistakes by giving us the means to lay them down, and rise to Him in gratitude and love.

And He descends to meet us, as we come to Him. For what He has prepared for us He gives and we receive. Such is His Will, because He loves His Son. To Him we pray today, returning but the word He gave to us through His Own Voice, His Word, His Love:

Your grace is given me. I claim it now. Father, I come
to You. And You will come to me who ask.
I am the Son You love.

A Course in Miracles: Day 170 Lesson 170

Lesson_170Your life is like a bad movie because it is a bad movie.  A cheap low budget horror show that you wrote the script for, hired the actors, directed then sat and watched and became so afraid of what you were watching that you built an army to defend you against your own movie. 
Any one watching you would swear you  were crazy.  So you make them the enemy as well and blame them for the movie you are watching and make them pay for making you afraid.

Now I again post today’s practice in it’s entirety as written in the Course in Miracles.    There is hope and a way out.  It is very simple.   Either you  choose to believe in fear  or you choose to believe in God.  But you cannot believe in both for one cancels out the other by the nature of what it is.  You cannot serve two masters.  Remember this as well: If fear could solve fear then fear would have been solved long before you.  If violence could solve violence then violence would have been gone long before you.  If hate could solve hate then hate would have been gone long before you.   Pick a form of fear and examine history.  Fear fuels itself and gives itself  the boost it needs to live another day in the tiny confines of your mind.  If you are tired of scaring the crap out of yourself then the choice is easy.  If you can endure more then please move away from the sharp objects…

There is no cruelty in God and none in me.

No one attacks without intent to hurt. This can have no exception. When you think that you attack in self-defense, you mean that to be cruel is protection; you are safe because of cruelty. You mean that you believe to hurt another brings you freedom. And you mean that to attack is to exchange the state in which you are for something better, safer, more secure from dangerous invasion and from fear.

How thoroughly insane is the idea that to defend from fear is to attack! For here is fear begot and fed with blood, to make it grow and swell and rage. And thus is fear protected, not escaped. Today we learn a lesson which can save you more delay and needless misery than you can possibly imagine. It is this:

You make what you defend against, and by your own
defense against it is it real and inescapable. Lay down
your arms, and only then do you perceive it false.

It seems to be the enemy without that you attack. Yet your defense sets up an enemy within; an alien thought at war with you, depriving you of peace, splitting your mind into two camps which seem wholly irreconcilable. For love now has an “enemy,” an opposite; and fear, the alien, now needs your defense against the threat of what you really are.

If you consider carefully the means by which your fancied self-defense proceeds on its imagined way, you will perceive the premises on which the idea stands. First, it is obvious ideas must leave their source, for it is you who make attack, and must have first conceived of it. Yet you attack outside yourself, and separate your mind from him who is to be attacked, with perfect faith the split you made is real.

Next, are the attributes of love bestowed upon its “enemy.” For fear becomes your safety and protector of your peace, to which you turn for solace and escape from doubts about your strength, and hope of rest in dreamless quiet. And as love is shorn of what belongs to it and it alone, love is endowed with attributes of fear. For love would ask you lay down all defense as merely foolish. And your arms indeed would crumble into dust. For such they are.

With love as enemy, must cruelty become a god. And gods demand that those who worship them obey their dictates, and refuse to question them. Harsh punishment is meted out relentlessly to those who ask if the demands are sensible or even sane. It is their enemies who are unreasonable and insane, while they are always merciful and just.

Today we look upon this cruel god dispassionately. And we note that though his lips are smeared with blood, and fire seems to flame from him, he is but made of stone. He can do nothing. We need not defy his power. He has none. And those who see in him their safety have no guardian, no strength to call upon in danger, and no mighty warrior to fight for them.

This moment can be terrible. But it can also be the time of your release from abject slavery. You make a choice, standing before this idol, seeing him exactly as he is. Will you restore to love what you have sought to wrest from it and lay before this mindless piece of stone? Or will you make another idol to replace it? For the god of cruelty takes many forms. Another can be found.

Yet do not think that fear is the escape from fear. Let us remember what the text has stressed about the obstacles to peace. The final one, the hardest to believe is nothing, and a seeming obstacle with the appearance of a solid block, impenetrable, fearful and beyond surmounting, is the fear of God Himself. Here is the basic premise which enthrones the thought of fear as god. For fear is loved by those who worship it, and love appears to be invested now with cruelty.

Where does the totally insane belief in gods of vengeance come from? Love has not confused its attributes with those of fear. Yet must the worshippers of fear perceive their own confusion in fear’s “enemy”; its cruelty as now a part of love. And what becomes more fearful than the Heart of Love Itself? The blood appears to be upon His Lips; the fire comes from Him. And He is terrible above all else, cruel beyond conception, striking down all who acknowledge Him to be their God.

The choice you make today is certain. For you look for the last time upon this bit of carven stone you made, and call it god no longer. You have reached this place before, but you have chosen that this cruel god remain with you in still another form. And so the fear of God returned with you. This time you leave it there. And you return to a new world, unburdened by its weight; beheld not in its sightless eyes, but in the vision that your choice restored to you.

Now do your eyes belong to Christ, and He looks through them. Now your voice belongs to God and echoes His. And now your heart remains at peace forever. You have chosen Him in place of idols, and your attributes, given by your Creator, are restored to you at last. The Call for God is heard and answered. Now has fear made way for love, as God Himself replaces cruelty.

Father, we are like You. No cruelty abides in us, for there is none in You. Your peace is ours. And we bless the world with what we have received from You alone. We choose again, and make our choice for all our brothers, knowing they are one with us. We bring them Your salvation as we have received it now. And we give thanks for them who render us complete. In them we see Your glory, and in them we find our peace. Holy are we because Your Holiness has set us free. And we give thanks. Amen.


A Course in Miracles: Day 166 Lesson 166

Lesson_166The gifts of God are yours.  They were yours from the moment you took your first breath until right now.  They will always be yours forever – one day at a time.
THey but wait on your welcome which you refuse to give out of an allegiance to nothing but a self you made up on put on an alter where it does not belong.  Then you have spent countless amounts of times trying to convince yourself that it belongs there.  Sometimes other substances gave you the power you needed to maintain the illusion but even this failed.  For what is true is true and what is not does not exist.

Enlightment is not a doing.  There is nothing to “do” because that is your natural state.  Rather there is an undoing.  A letting go of all you thought you knew about yourself, the world even God.  The ego cannot “know” anything, because it is a set of thoughts stuck in a loop with a life of it’s own.  It is this dysfunction that you defend and demand the right to assert in the world because you made this up and want to believe it truth over what is really true.

Know that regardless of time you waste fighting smoke demons beside you walks One who knows you as you and holds all the gifts that are yours.  Acceptance of these gifts is simple.  So simple it may just elude your ego who seeks to get lost in complex concepts that mean nothing but affirm the illusion of separation. 

The simplicity is this; “Act as if”.  You are blessed – walk like one who is blessed, talk like one who is blessed, share what you have with others.  There is a powerful 3rd step prayer used in 12 step programs it goes like this:

God, I offer myself to thee, to build with me and to do with me as thou wilt.  Relieve me of the bobndage of self that I may better do thy will.  Take away my difficulties that victory over them may bear witness to those I would help of thy power, thy love and thy way of life. May I do thy will always.

Your difficulties have been removed.  You but see echoes of them that are in their waning stage – but because you “see” them you believe them to be here and it is your belief that creates more of them.  The way free is to “plant new seeds of thought” –  Repeat today’s idea to yourself over and over and over in whatever form you like – easy does it but do it.


The gifts are yours, entrusted to your care, to give to all who chose the lonely road you have escaped. They do not understand they but pursue their wishes. It is you who teach them now. For you have learned of Christ there is another way for them to walk. Teach them by showing them the happiness that comes to those who feel the touch of Christ, and recognize God’s gifts. Let sorrow not tempt you to be unfaithful to your trust.

Your sighs will now betray the hopes of those who look to you for their release. Your tears are theirs. If you are sick, you but withhold their healing. What you fear but teaches them their fears are justified. Your hand becomes the giver of Christ’s touch; your change of mind becomes the proof that who accepts God’s gifts can never suffer anything. You are entrusted with the world’s release from pain.

Betray it not. Become the living proof of what Christ’s touch can offer everyone. God has entrusted all His gifts to you. Be witness in your happiness to how transformed the mind becomes which chooses to accept His gifts, and feel the touch of Christ. Such is your mission now. For God entrusts the giving of His gifts to all who have received them. He has shared His joy with you. And now you go to share it with the world.



A Course in Miracles: Day 165 Lesson 165

Lesson_165Today’s practice is all about watching your thoughts and “denying” those thoughts that deny God.  In Science of Mind they call this “deny the denials”.
Remember that what is One can have no opposite.  And there must be opposites for conflict and judgement to take occur. 

Any thought that is not love is an attack.  Because in order for something to occur that is not apart of everything is must establish itself as separate – love enfolds, embraces takes in all – what is not love, then, must push away, judge, conflict with, engage in any thought that affirms separation so that it’s existence continues. 

It may be hard for you, who have spent so many years indulging in your every thought to grasp the idea that that indulgence stems from your ego belief that it is it’s own maker and therefore can entertain any thought it wishes.  If you but get a glimmer of the power of thought then you will begin to understand the mistaken logic of the ego.  The Universal unchangeable law of the universe is that thought is creative

You unleash into the cosmic creation machine an uncountable amount of thoughts you allow yourself daily, it’s like walking into Times Square Station during rush hour  packed with people.   You pack the Universe with demands all day not aware that your thoughts are demands.   Demands which, however sugar-coated they may seem, are rooted in the soil of restlessness, irritability, and discontentedness.  Symptoms of a spiritual sickness that has it’s root in a mistake in perception.  Even quantum physics says we are one – yet the ego, lost in the story it made up, angrily shouts back “no I am not – I am different, I am unique, I am alone”. Denials of the truth that must be denied to get back to the awareness of truth.

The Thought of God created you. It left you not, nor have you ever been apart from it an instant. It belongs to you. By it you live. It is your Source of life, holding you one with it, and everything is one with you because it left you not. The Thought of God protects you, cares for you, makes soft your resting place and smooth your way, lighting your mind with happiness and love. Eternity and everlasting life shine in your mind, because the Thought of God has left you not, and still abides with you.

So today practice “with all the earnestness at your command”.  Watch your thoughts and  when a thought that is not love appears gently remind yourself “let not my mind deny the thought of God“.  If you have to practice this a hundred times a hundred then it is time well spent for the reward is great.

Do not allow yourself to get caught up in semantics, religious debates or confusions.  Just know that there is something greater than you that is in you and you are in it and you don’t have to understand it totally, nor do you need to know when it began or when it will end. 

Deny not Heaven. It is yours today, but for the asking. Nor need you perceive how great the gift, how changed your mind will be before it comes to you. Ask to receive, and it is given you. Conviction lies within it. Till you welcome it as yours, uncertainty remains. Yet God is fair. Sureness is not required to receive what only your acceptance can bestow.

Ask with desire. You need not be sure that you request the only thing you want. But when you have received, you will be sure you have the treasure you have always sought. What would you then exchange for it? What would induce you now to let it fade away from your ecstatic vision? For this sight proves that you have exchanged your blindness for the seeing eyes of Christ; your mind has come to lay aside denial, and accept the Thought of God as your inheritance.

Now is all doubting past, the journey’s end made certain, and salvation given you. Now is Christ’s power in your mind, to heal as you were healed. For now you are among the saviors of the world. Your destiny lies there and nowhere else. Would God consent to let His Son remain forever starved by his denial of the nourishment he needs to live? Abundance dwells in him, and deprivation cannot cut him off from God’s sustaining Love and from his home.

Practice today in hope. For hope indeed is justified. Your doubts are meaningless, for God is certain. And the Thought of Him is never absent. Sureness must abide within you who are host to Him. This course removes all doubts which you have interposed between Him and your certainty of Him.

We count on God, and not upon ourselves, to give us certainty. And in His Name we practice as His Word directs we do. His sureness lies beyond our every doubt. His Love remains beyond our every fear. The Thought of Him is still beyond all dreams and in our minds, according to His Will.


A Course in Miracles: Day 164 Lesson 164

Lesson_164If you don’t already have your copy  you can get it here: A Course in Miracles-Original Edition

What time but now can truth be recognized? The present is the only time there is. And so today, this instant, now, we come to look upon what is forever there; not in our sight, but in the eyes of Christ. He looks past time, and sees eternity as represented there. He hears the sounds the senseless, busy world engenders, yet He hears them faintly. For beyond them all He hears the song of Heaven, and the Voice for God more clear, more meaningful, more near.

The world fades easily away before His sight. Its sounds grow dim. A melody from far beyond the world increasingly is more and more distinct; an ancient call to which He gives an ancient answer. You will recognize them both, for they are but your answer to your Father’s Call to you. Christ answers for you, echoing your Self, using your voice to give His glad consent; accepting your deliverance for you.

How holy is your practicing today, as Christ gives you His sight and hears for you, and answers in your name the Call He hears! How quiet is the time you give to spend with Him, beyond the world. How easily are all your seeming sins forgot, and all your sorrows unremembered. On this day is grief laid by, for sights and sounds that come from nearer than the world are clear to you who will today accept the gifts He gives.

There is a silence into which the world can not intrude. There is an ancient peace you carry in your heart and have not lost. There is a sense of holiness in you the thought of sin has never touched. All this today you will remember. Faithfulness in practicing today will bring rewards so great and so completely different from all things you sought before, that you will know that here your treasure is, and here your rest.

This is the day when vain imaginings part like a curtain, to reveal what lies beyond them. Now is what is really there made visible, while all the shadows which appeared to hide it merely sink away. Now is the balance righted, and the scale of judgment left to Him Who judges true. And in His judgment will a world unfold in perfect innocence before your eyes. Now will you see it with the eyes of Christ. Now is its transformation clear to you.

Brother, this day is sacred to the world. Your vision, given you from far beyond all things within the world, looks back on them in a new light. And what you see becomes the healing and salvation of the world. The valuable and valueless are both perceived and recognized for what they are. And what is worthy of your love receives your love, while nothing to be feared remains.

We will not judge today. We will receive but what is given us from judgment made beyond the world. Our practicing today becomes our gift of thankfulness for our release from blindness and from misery. All that we see will but increase our joy, because its holiness reflects our own. We stand forgiven in the sight of Christ, with all the world forgiven in our own. We bless the world, as we behold it in the light in which our Savior looks on us, and offer it the freedom given us through His forgiving vision, not our own.

Open the curtain in your practicing by merely letting go all things you think you want. Your trifling treasures put away, and leave a clean and open space within your mind where Christ can come, and offer you the treasure of salvation. He has need of your most holy mind to save the world. Is not this purpose worthy to be yours? Is not Christ’s vision worthy to be sought above the world’s unsatisfying goals?

Let not today slip by without the gifts it holds for you receiving your consent and your acceptance. We can change the world, if you acknowledge them. You may not see the value your acceptance gives the world. But this you surely want; you can exchange all suffering for joy this very day. Practice in earnest, and the gift is yours. Would God deceive you? Can His promise fail? Can you withhold so little, when His Hand holds out complete salvation to His Son?

 If you don’t already have your copy  you can get it here: A Course in Miracles-Original Edition